That turning point.

Hey there, it's me. The second week of semester 2 had just ended, and within this week, there were some changes on me, it's kinda a big deal actually, cause it is going to change my entire uni life, and also life after graduating etc bla bla. Hmm the title of the story is, "changing your progression" haha ! Yeap. I changed my progression, I changed my decision, I changed my degree course, I changed my mind. WHY ? I do not have a particular reason in my head, I really dont know why my mind changed like so suddenly, there are a lot of reasons, a lot of issues affecting me, but what I can sum up is, the introduction to Pharmacy as a Profession class, did changed my mind a lot. The first day of class, the lecturer gave some briefings about the module, and of course some introductions of the Mpharm course. The entire two hours class, I was sitting there, whispering to myself "wtf, why am I here, why I chose this course", instead of showing excitements what I showed was bitter faces. And from that moment onward I started to think about how I want my future to be. Do I really want to be a pharmacist ? Am I suitable for this ? Will I survive the four years ? Is this what I want ? and the answer is, No. The first thought of taking Mpharm, it's because I think I like Chemistry, I want to study something that's related to Chemistry, and so I chose Mpharm, of course being a pharmacist is not all about chemistry, there are some other subjects that we need to learn as well, like communication skills. That's definitely not a thing I am good at, especially facing patients, you need to explain stuffs, or communicate with them, comfort them, and this was the issue I left out, when I chose Mpharm at first. That's why people always say think wisely before you act, this is so true. Cause it's the final sem, and now I only found out what Mpharm is really about, and it's not the thing I want. So I changed my mind. Not that I am not capable to study Mpharm, it's I do not want to. Plus the passionate towards Chemistry is no longer here, and I am more into biology now haha. Yes I am this unstable for all the time. But for this time, I am pretty sure that, pharmacist is not the way I want my future to be. Definitely not my type. I actually went through a really hard time while making decision, all kind of issues ran through my mind, mood level always was constantly down and down and down. Cause it's so confused and annoyed to solve this kind of problem. And I have decidophobia haha. But then the conclusion was finally made after that. I actually feel lucky that I realised this now, better to change now since I am still in foundation than I regret after I enter undergraduate year. I'm sorry Dad, I know that phone call to you telling that I dont want to take Mpharm anymore scared you like hell, I am so so sorry that I made a wrong decision at the beginning, but still, you gave me your support, which I really appreciate it. Feel kinda relief tho, it's so happy that you can finally say goodbye to IELTS and OSCE (tests you have to go through if you wanna enter that hella Mpharm). Phewwww ! This turning point of my life which I decided to make it happen after few nights of insomnia, no matter it's a correct or a wrong decision, it's a decision I made for myself, go for it and you will reach the destination. Yes I can do it, this is just the starting line, wish me good luck ! See you at the ending line :)

End x Start

The first month of twenty fifteen ended, see how fast the time flies ? I thought I just celebrated new year with the wadat girls, and I thought I just ended my finals and welcomed my sem break ? The fact now is, sem break had came to an end, and a brand new semester begins. It's our final sem for foundation year, we will be entering degree this September.. sounds old and terrible. Anyhow, life still goes on and on, no matter how long or how hard the journey will be, we still have to keep on walking, and that's called life.

So my January 2015 ended beautifully, cause I spent it with Wangleehom ! After twenty plus days of countdown, and finally the long awaited day was here. Yesh ! It's the Starlight Concert 2015 held by Ecoworld, for your information the concert venue was right near my uni, and it's freeeee ! I could still remember when we find out this concert we were life, holy shit Wangleehom is coming to Semenyih !!! I have no reason to not to go see him, NO REASON. The concert was awesomeee, cause there's leehom :) He sang for one hour, thirteen songs, we were at quite a good spot cause we could see him clearly on stage, though it's a minimised version of him, BUT that's enough. The moment the intro of 'Now It's The Time' was played, I feel like cryinggg, the dream had finally came true, I'm not a die hard Leehom's fan, but he is the one who went through the past eighteen years with me, and I am really into his songs recently, especially the song, 'Now It's The Time'. I'm lovin it very very muchhh. Though it's a free concert but the whole setting of the venue including the stage, spotlights etc, it's really great. All of us gone crazeeey as usual, shout like no one cares, I feel so sorry to the one who was beside me haha. And I also watched the most magnificent fireworks display, on the last day of January, with the amazing bunch of friends. *one of the bucket list checked* It was a beautiful night, with leehom, with friends, with beautiful songs, with laughter, with screams, with cheers, with your love :)

The next day, aha, I saw leehom once againnnnnn. I know, this is over limit, how can you see leehom continuously in two days, hahaha ! Very sorry, I did. Saw him once again in Pavillion the next day, on his new album [ Your Love ] autograph session. The crowds over there the moment we reached, no joking it's very terrible. All I could see is people standing here and there to get their best spots. Short girl problem : You have to be in the first row in order to see Leehom, haha. luckily I managed to squeeze myself to somewhere first row. This is wayyy tooo C R A Z Y for seeing him twice, and this time, nearer ! He was just right in front of me, although there was a decoration tree which was a really annoying tree blocking my eyesight. I am satisfied, very very satisfied, Leehom marked the awesomeness of the beginning of February :) It's also a kisiao day spent with the kisiaos. Someone lost her voice which made me laughed all the day, failed selfies with the twin towers etc etc. It had been six months plus, from the really awkward friendship to the really close one, I dont know why I just feel it's amazing how this came through, especially while flashing back the past memories, how we went closer to each other, I am so thankful to have you all, sincerely :) haha I know you'll be laughing at me if you see this, i am kinda emotional tonight so please bear with me. Continue the kisiaoness, endlessly ! 

With love, there it goes the remarkable end of January and start of February. Hope everyone is having a cool start of the second month of the year, hope everyone has a smooth begin of the new semester ( though we are currently pissed off due to some grouping issues ), but no matter what the final semester needs to go beyond crazy, and to the infinity. Keep on going people !



Betty.

The start of sem break.

Hell yeah I am currently enjoying my sem break now, the three weeks holiday started at 12th of Jan 2015 ! That's the last day of our exams, last paper was Chemistry and it's.. hmm I just hope it's not that bad :/ Alright forget bout those shits, we're FREE now ! Of course cannot let the precious holiday end up very dull, so.. some plans are being planned. Guess what we've up to ? Hehe.

The first thing we did was to fix our cravings !! We (you'll know who cause it's always that few of us lol ) went to SS2 for Dragon pizzas, Nasi Lemak Ayam Pandan, Fatbaby ice cream.. BUT we're too bad luck on that day cause all the shops were closed on Monday :l Ahhhh so frustrating right.  It's okay, plan changed but it's still fun, tho it's not perfect as we wanted haha. We explored the SS2's night market, luckily the night market was opened on that day, if not.. the plan will be totally different. We had asam laksa for our dinner, and then some very disappointing desserts. Cravings not fixed but we had really fun time laughing at some lame jokes lol. Nayy, it's not the ending of the day yet, after saying goodbye to Wanting and Anna, Ongliniao, Seling, Michy and I went for second round @ Tea code, C180. I remember the place's name very well haha cause I asked why is it called C180 XD but no answers given lol. So four of us had a long chit chat, someone had been very emotional haha, Chill and relax kay, don't feel so stressful *if you're reading this. I like girls' talk like this, sincerely like it :) Oh and the next up is, we went to Beer Factory, ahhh you must be thinking woah so chill wah go drink beer somemore, but the fact is, we actually didnt order alcoholic drinks, and the detailed story, hmm it's a tiny secret among four of us :b and after sending Michy home, we ( the three kisiaos ) watched Masters Sun from like 12am until 5+am,  kisiaos' sleeping time is meant to be like this so don't feel shocked haha, and the first day of sem break ended like this. 

The next day, we slept at like 6am so what time you expect us to wake up ? ya.... 12pm :b and guess what, the three kisiaos were heading to Tampin (my peaceful hometown) on today. We actually planned to take a bus to Tampin at 2.30 pm, but too bad the bus ticket is not available when we went to the bus station, and plan changed. Again. So we took KTM to Seremban and then bus to Tampin like how I used to do. Long journey I know, it's probably the most tiring road journey ever to that two monkeys haha. We reached at 6+ evening, and I brought them for dinner @ Deen's Burger Bakar. Woohoo and then we went for some karaoke session which was really high and the two monkeys lost their voice right after that lmao. 

The next next day, we went to Malacca, it's so near to Tampin how can we not go right ? We planned to take bus at first, but then after some serious discussions, plan changed. Again and again. Haha, we drove to Malacca, I'm not the driver btw if you're wondering :b We reached Malacca at 12pm and straight went to Jonker Street for lunch. We had Chicken Riceballs, I forgot the shop's name but it's quite a nice one. After that we had the legendary ABC @ Jonker 88. 

It's a kinda bad luck day, too :/ Cause we parked at a random parking at Jonker Street and forgot that we actually have to buy parking coupon, so haha.. A ticket was found on your car windshield. Yeeee too bad luck. So we went to Dataran Pahlawan, supposed was to find the counter to pay for this ticket, but ended up went for a game at Bowling Centre lol. Except lousy I don't know how to describe my bowling skills, funny experience tho. Then we went to Seling's realtives house and we settled the fine, with the help of her cousin, pheeewww luckily it was settled. Another secret to be kept here, they aren't gonna know it, if you know who am I mentioning :b Then we headed for food again, high tea @ Klebang Coconut Milkshake. It's a non stop eating day, I never felt hungry at all, for the whole day. We had Satay Celup for our dinner later, *buuurppp* non stop eating till our stomach feel like boooming ~ A very fun day with the kisiaos, non stop laughing + eating was great haha.

Three kisiaos @ Jonker Street. 

Three kisiaos under Malacca's bright Sun.

The next next next day, haha. Slept like a pig cause we woke at around 11am. And then we went to Gunung Tampin, haha. After breakfast blablabla, the actual time we went to tampin hill was like 12+pm. and the funniest thing I heard ever, "I never went to climb hill at this late." Ikr... but the point is, we didnt climb / walk up the hill. We actually drove up, no it's actually I drove up the hill, seriously fml XD The yolo-est thing ever I did for sure. Shhh.. this is also a secret among you and I. So we spent some time at the so called water fall + water pool and had foot spa ahha. The water was just too refreshing and ice coldddd ! Glad that you two like the water over there lol.

Three kisiaos @ Gunung Tampin. 

Foot spa @ Gunung Tampin.

Chilling with you two monkeys at Gunung Tampin was really fun lol. Especially the MV part, ahherm. Yes we did some cray cray stuffs as we used to be, hmmm recorded those kind of videos which can only be viewed by ourselves haha. Aint gonna upload it, cause it might laugh your socks off XD Extremely crazey stuffs that you cannot imagine haha. Crazy time with you guys always pass away very fast haha. Thanks for visiting my sweet hometown and tolerating my failed touring skills hahahaha ! See you soon kisiaos :)

Thanks for reading until this line, stay tuned for more ! 

Betty.

Goodbye 2014.

woooh ! Time flies isnt it, it's the second day of 2015. I am still in the mood of 2014, I'm still in the mood of eighteen. Wow ya, I'm turning nineteen this year, officially nineteen in four months time. Supposed to write a flashback about 2014, but its gonna be a very looooooooooong post :b 

Year 2014 was really really a great one. The first three months I went for National Service, yah baby believe your eyes, I am a NS survivor. That three months were.. hmm "interesting". Find me for a chat if you wanna know more what I've been through in NS,
there are a lot of stories to be told haha. 

And then.. after waking up from that nightmare (NS), it's already March. I got my SPM results after that, god bless me it's kinda satisfying haha. Well then I had a rough month deciding where I belong to, I rejected form six of course, so after all, I am now in UNMC haha. There and then my wonderful uni life started. It started smoothly I guess, tho some silly things happened and.. haha. Anyhow, I survived ! Sem zero, sem one. Thank you to all of you, my group members, my friends, lecturers and everyone haha, thanks for everything. Countless crazey things happened also, my Queen of Hearts, Wadat group, so grateful to have all of you. And also my BFFs for life, tho the chance to meet is kinda low, but it will never change, everything will always be the same whenever I'm with ten of you.

So how I spent my last day of 2014?

Haha, summary of the whole day is : tired + kisiao + mabok (drunk) + wadat (disgusting). 

Time spent with wadat girls was always the happiest time. laughters never stop. 

SO

Time to say goodbye to all the shits, sadness, that happened in 2014, it's not a big deal,
cause I'm still alive. 

A lot tragedies happened in 2014, and I hope everything will get better in 2015. 

May all of them who passed away in these tragedies rest in peace,
and my deepest condolences to their family members. 

People come and go, thank you, to everyone of you who are still with me,
through the thunder and the rain. 

New year, new chapter, new page of life, but still the old me, the old you who stayed in the old memories.
Duhh .

So lastly, happy new year and 

hope you have a great year ahead ! 

Live your life to the fullest, cause one day you'll leave this world behind, so live a life you will remember, like how my father told me :) 

Love, 

Betty.