That turning point.

Hey there, it's me. The second week of semester 2 had just ended, and within this week, there were some changes on me, it's kinda a big deal actually, cause it is going to change my entire uni life, and also life after graduating etc bla bla. Hmm the title of the story is, "changing your progression" haha ! Yeap. I changed my progression, I changed my decision, I changed my degree course, I changed my mind. WHY ? I do not have a particular reason in my head, I really dont know why my mind changed like so suddenly, there are a lot of reasons, a lot of issues affecting me, but what I can sum up is, the introduction to Pharmacy as a Profession class, did changed my mind a lot. The first day of class, the lecturer gave some briefings about the module, and of course some introductions of the Mpharm course. The entire two hours class, I was sitting there, whispering to myself "wtf, why am I here, why I chose this course", instead of showing excitements what I showed was bitter faces. And from that moment onward I started to think about how I want my future to be. Do I really want to be a pharmacist ? Am I suitable for this ? Will I survive the four years ? Is this what I want ? and the answer is, No. The first thought of taking Mpharm, it's because I think I like Chemistry, I want to study something that's related to Chemistry, and so I chose Mpharm, of course being a pharmacist is not all about chemistry, there are some other subjects that we need to learn as well, like communication skills. That's definitely not a thing I am good at, especially facing patients, you need to explain stuffs, or communicate with them, comfort them, and this was the issue I left out, when I chose Mpharm at first. That's why people always say think wisely before you act, this is so true. Cause it's the final sem, and now I only found out what Mpharm is really about, and it's not the thing I want. So I changed my mind. Not that I am not capable to study Mpharm, it's I do not want to. Plus the passionate towards Chemistry is no longer here, and I am more into biology now haha. Yes I am this unstable for all the time. But for this time, I am pretty sure that, pharmacist is not the way I want my future to be. Definitely not my type. I actually went through a really hard time while making decision, all kind of issues ran through my mind, mood level always was constantly down and down and down. Cause it's so confused and annoyed to solve this kind of problem. And I have decidophobia haha. But then the conclusion was finally made after that. I actually feel lucky that I realised this now, better to change now since I am still in foundation than I regret after I enter undergraduate year. I'm sorry Dad, I know that phone call to you telling that I dont want to take Mpharm anymore scared you like hell, I am so so sorry that I made a wrong decision at the beginning, but still, you gave me your support, which I really appreciate it. Feel kinda relief tho, it's so happy that you can finally say goodbye to IELTS and OSCE (tests you have to go through if you wanna enter that hella Mpharm). Phewwww ! This turning point of my life which I decided to make it happen after few nights of insomnia, no matter it's a correct or a wrong decision, it's a decision I made for myself, go for it and you will reach the destination. Yes I can do it, this is just the starting line, wish me good luck ! See you at the ending line :)

End x Start

The first month of twenty fifteen ended, see how fast the time flies ? I thought I just celebrated new year with the wadat girls, and I thought I just ended my finals and welcomed my sem break ? The fact now is, sem break had came to an end, and a brand new semester begins. It's our final sem for foundation year, we will be entering degree this September.. sounds old and terrible. Anyhow, life still goes on and on, no matter how long or how hard the journey will be, we still have to keep on walking, and that's called life.

So my January 2015 ended beautifully, cause I spent it with Wangleehom ! After twenty plus days of countdown, and finally the long awaited day was here. Yesh ! It's the Starlight Concert 2015 held by Ecoworld, for your information the concert venue was right near my uni, and it's freeeee ! I could still remember when we find out this concert we were life, holy shit Wangleehom is coming to Semenyih !!! I have no reason to not to go see him, NO REASON. The concert was awesomeee, cause there's leehom :) He sang for one hour, thirteen songs, we were at quite a good spot cause we could see him clearly on stage, though it's a minimised version of him, BUT that's enough. The moment the intro of 'Now It's The Time' was played, I feel like cryinggg, the dream had finally came true, I'm not a die hard Leehom's fan, but he is the one who went through the past eighteen years with me, and I am really into his songs recently, especially the song, 'Now It's The Time'. I'm lovin it very very muchhh. Though it's a free concert but the whole setting of the venue including the stage, spotlights etc, it's really great. All of us gone crazeeey as usual, shout like no one cares, I feel so sorry to the one who was beside me haha. And I also watched the most magnificent fireworks display, on the last day of January, with the amazing bunch of friends. *one of the bucket list checked* It was a beautiful night, with leehom, with friends, with beautiful songs, with laughter, with screams, with cheers, with your love :)

The next day, aha, I saw leehom once againnnnnn. I know, this is over limit, how can you see leehom continuously in two days, hahaha ! Very sorry, I did. Saw him once again in Pavillion the next day, on his new album [ Your Love ] autograph session. The crowds over there the moment we reached, no joking it's very terrible. All I could see is people standing here and there to get their best spots. Short girl problem : You have to be in the first row in order to see Leehom, haha. luckily I managed to squeeze myself to somewhere first row. This is wayyy tooo C R A Z Y for seeing him twice, and this time, nearer ! He was just right in front of me, although there was a decoration tree which was a really annoying tree blocking my eyesight. I am satisfied, very very satisfied, Leehom marked the awesomeness of the beginning of February :) It's also a kisiao day spent with the kisiaos. Someone lost her voice which made me laughed all the day, failed selfies with the twin towers etc etc. It had been six months plus, from the really awkward friendship to the really close one, I dont know why I just feel it's amazing how this came through, especially while flashing back the past memories, how we went closer to each other, I am so thankful to have you all, sincerely :) haha I know you'll be laughing at me if you see this, i am kinda emotional tonight so please bear with me. Continue the kisiaoness, endlessly ! 

With love, there it goes the remarkable end of January and start of February. Hope everyone is having a cool start of the second month of the year, hope everyone has a smooth begin of the new semester ( though we are currently pissed off due to some grouping issues ), but no matter what the final semester needs to go beyond crazy, and to the infinity. Keep on going people !



Betty.