That turning point.

Hey there, it's me. The second week of semester 2 had just ended, and within this week, there were some changes on me, it's kinda a big deal actually, cause it is going to change my entire uni life, and also life after graduating etc bla bla. Hmm the title of the story is, "changing your progression" haha ! Yeap. I changed my progression, I changed my decision, I changed my degree course, I changed my mind. WHY ? I do not have a particular reason in my head, I really dont know why my mind changed like so suddenly, there are a lot of reasons, a lot of issues affecting me, but what I can sum up is, the introduction to Pharmacy as a Profession class, did changed my mind a lot. The first day of class, the lecturer gave some briefings about the module, and of course some introductions of the Mpharm course. The entire two hours class, I was sitting there, whispering to myself "wtf, why am I here, why I chose this course", instead of showing excitements what I showed was bitter faces. And from that moment onward I started to think about how I want my future to be. Do I really want to be a pharmacist ? Am I suitable for this ? Will I survive the four years ? Is this what I want ? and the answer is, No. The first thought of taking Mpharm, it's because I think I like Chemistry, I want to study something that's related to Chemistry, and so I chose Mpharm, of course being a pharmacist is not all about chemistry, there are some other subjects that we need to learn as well, like communication skills. That's definitely not a thing I am good at, especially facing patients, you need to explain stuffs, or communicate with them, comfort them, and this was the issue I left out, when I chose Mpharm at first. That's why people always say think wisely before you act, this is so true. Cause it's the final sem, and now I only found out what Mpharm is really about, and it's not the thing I want. So I changed my mind. Not that I am not capable to study Mpharm, it's I do not want to. Plus the passionate towards Chemistry is no longer here, and I am more into biology now haha. Yes I am this unstable for all the time. But for this time, I am pretty sure that, pharmacist is not the way I want my future to be. Definitely not my type. I actually went through a really hard time while making decision, all kind of issues ran through my mind, mood level always was constantly down and down and down. Cause it's so confused and annoyed to solve this kind of problem. And I have decidophobia haha. But then the conclusion was finally made after that. I actually feel lucky that I realised this now, better to change now since I am still in foundation than I regret after I enter undergraduate year. I'm sorry Dad, I know that phone call to you telling that I dont want to take Mpharm anymore scared you like hell, I am so so sorry that I made a wrong decision at the beginning, but still, you gave me your support, which I really appreciate it. Feel kinda relief tho, it's so happy that you can finally say goodbye to IELTS and OSCE (tests you have to go through if you wanna enter that hella Mpharm). Phewwww ! This turning point of my life which I decided to make it happen after few nights of insomnia, no matter it's a correct or a wrong decision, it's a decision I made for myself, go for it and you will reach the destination. Yes I can do it, this is just the starting line, wish me good luck ! See you at the ending line :)